A Letter To The Guy Who Couldn’t Decide What He Wanted

 

Maybe you will never read this letter, but I just wanted to say what is on my mind.

I need to put my emotions on a piece of paper and once I read it all, maybe I will be strong enough to close this chapter of my life.

I just want you to know that it is not easy for me to do this and while I am writing this letter, there are mixed feelings about you inside my heart.

Some of them tell me that you deserve a second chance but on the other hand, there are those ugly feelings that were developed from all the bad things you did to me.

I want you to know one thing—you were the man I loved the most but you hurt me.

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You meant the world to me and I saw everything that I have been dreaming of in you.

You knew a good way to win me over. You knew how to move into my heart. And you were there even before I realized it.

It is difficult to kick out someone from your heart. I mean, there was a reason you were there.

I must have felt something for you, right? But you didn’t care about it. And honestly, I don’t know if your purpose was to hurt me or you did that accidentally.

I just know that after our breakup I am still broken. I can’t shake this feeling of sorrow off. I am trying so hard to be the old me. The one who is always cheerful and the one who never gives up.

Now, I am thinking if I should have fought for you harder.

Maybe you were calling me to help you but I didn’t know to recognize your voice.

I couldn’t see that you needed me. But when I think twice, it wasn’t all my fault.

If you need someone, you come and say it. You don’t hurt people just to get their attention. I guess you chose the wrong way.

I just want to tell you that I couldn’t stand your moody behavior anymore.

I couldn’t stand that you said that you loved me one day and I would catch you with another girl the next one.

I couldn’t be in that magic circle anymore. I needed the truth from you.

I needed you to admit either that you love me and want to stay with me or that you don’t want me to be a part of your life anymore.

But I never heard those words coming out of your mouth.

And then in the blink of an eye, I realized I should stop waiting for you.

Because your indecision was a decision.

A decision that you don’t love me enough to provide me with all the love I need. You couldn’t have loved me with the same amount of love and passion that I felt for you.

But you were a coward to admit that.

It was easier to twist me around your little finger and be with me when that was convenient for you.

Because that was something I always was—your second choice, a girl you always crawled to when others abandoned you.

But, now it is enough. I quit on you.

I quit on our love and everything that we could have had if you were just a little bit more willing to try.

I don’t want to fight for someone who doesn’t fight for me. I don’t need an almost relationship.

I deserve it all or nothing at all. And I guess that I experienced the latter with you.

So, listen to this: I will wait for a guy who knows what he wants.

I will wait for the one who will be devoted to a relationship and not disappear for 2 months and then pop up all of a sudden.

I want someone who will always be there. Because that is what people in love do—they can rely on each other.

In the end, I want you to remember this one thing: Never date another girl if you are not willing to give yourself all in.

Don’t let another one suffer like I did. Make sure that you can handle everything before you even start it. Or don’t start it at all.

With zero love,

The one who was more than enough for you

 

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